I think I’ve become desensitized when it comes to guys. The minute I feel the rush of blood in my ears I know the sinking in my chest will start shortly after. This time it only took a day for me to drop deep into myself and be swallowed up by these dark emotions that lie waiting. Is there anyone brave enough to dive in and save me? I suppose not since I’m still down here. I sometimes worry that if I stay down here too long then I’ll never resurface, my feet sinking into the mud at the bottom. Then again I always manage to lift myself up before…well, I don’t know what.
To those who stay put, the world is but an imaginary place. But to the movers, the makers and the shakers, the world is all around them. An endless invitation.
despite having sliced open my finger and nearly handing in an assignment late, I had a fabulous week.
I went shopping with my main gal Lindsey on Friday, saw my Starbucks buddy Mariah on Monday and then I saw my best guy friend on Saturday. I still can’t believe he’s leaving me for five months. How am I going to survive? I’m already sad and he hasn’t even left yet. Damn I hate saying goodbye. Maybe I’ll persuade him to hang out tonight for a bit so we can at least chat a bit.
Now I just have to pull myself together a bit and get some english and marketing done and then I can relax for two seconds before I go onto the next thing. I can’t wait till school is over.